Thursday, November 22, 2018

Essay #3: Persuasive Essay - God’s Merciful Interventions… Or Lack Thereof?


During a movie set during the Pacific portion of World War II, a hardened soldier asks another, “If God made all of us, why did he make the Japs?” The second responds humbly that we are all created by God, but we all have free will. The first said he wanted nothing to do with a God who could create such hateful people, while the second smiled and walked away with his bible clutched to his chest.
This exchange shows two different viewpoints; one, believing God sits on his throne watching us and not caring one bit, while the other showing belief that God has a plan and through faith, we can be given His blessings.
The question is: Is God involved in our lives even today? To what extent does He interfere, punish, or bless?
The topic of war is an example of being subject to suffering in many forms, not just the act of warfare. Looking at God in the Old Testament, many see things like the plagues of Egypt (Bible KJV Ex 7-12) as evidence that God, when He does intervene, acts harshly. However, careful study of the plagues sees the Lord giving Pharaoh chance, after chance, after chance to hear Moses. God had compassion even on Pharaoh, just like He does with the people we perceive as “wicked” today by allowing them to use their agency before He intervenes.
Why, then, does God allow people who follow Him to suffer? Is He just letting us flail around in the dark, letting life events unfold with no intervention? If that were the case, then following the teachings of God would be fruitless. However, Dallin H. Oaks said, “Our loving Heavenly Father wants His children to have the joy that is the purpose of our creation.” This statement demonstrates that God is involved. Why, then, do we suffer? Kenneth H. Beesley explained; “We must pass through the refining experience of sorrow… if we are to enjoy… the blessings of the celestial kingdom.”
Refining experiences are found throughout history. The early saints, the people of the Book of Mormon, and the biblical tale of Lot, (KJV Bible) are riddled with examples of suffering bringing about a greater purpose. 1 Nephi 20:10 says: “For, behold, I have refined thee, I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.” In Ether 12:27 we also read; “And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.” Thus, we see that God allows us to struggle and to use our agency, so we learn to turn to Him and He, in return, can make us stronger.
God wants us to be happy. He has a perspective we cannot fathom. He knows us in ways we do not even realize. He loves us so much that He allows us to use our agency for better or for worse. He loves us enough to let us learn through hard times, while He stands by, ready and waiting for us to turn to Him for help. Whether or not He intervenes is up to us.

Works Cited
The Holy Bible, King James Version, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, 1979.
The Book of Mormon. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, 1981.
Beesley, Kenneth H. “What is the Purpose of Suffering?” New Era. April 1975, https://www.lds.org/new-era/1975/04/what-is-the-purpose-of-suffering?lang=eng
Oaks, Dallin H. “Truth and the Plan.” General Conference. October 2018, https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2018/10/truth-and-the-plan?lang=eng

Friday, November 16, 2018

Essay #2: This I Believe


Motherhood
At church one Sunday, we had a lesson about nobility in motherhood and I almost burst into tears. At the time, I was exhausted from another week of failing to keep my house tidy, sleep deprivation, and fighting with growth-spurt induced tantrums. When I see other kids sitting quietly while my two wild girls climb the furniture, let out high pitched squeals, and eat— constantly eat—I think, why did I sign up for this gig?
No matter how hard it is raising kids, I wouldn't trade them for the world. In my heart, I believe that being a mother is the noblest of callings. Being given the responsibility to care for, mold, and love someone so they can become a functioning and intelligent member of society is crucial. Although I have a love-hate relationship with my role, in the long run, my struggles and tears will be worth it.
Carrying and bearing children is a wondrous part of motherhood, a great gift from God, but there is so much more to this role. Being a mother means being a leader. To guide people down the paths of life means being intelligent, compassionate, kind, refined, faithful, virtuous, and most of all, loving. People usually respond positively to these qualities. These qualities can instigate greater good than harsh words, casting a vote, or being the driving force behind a protest rally.
While working in elementary schools, I’ve seen children of all varieties. There was one girl whom everyone had grown frustrated because of her poor behavior. I discovered all she needed was someone to listen and see her as someone deserving of love. Soon, I became the one she would run to for anything from when she had a rough night with her divorced parents to when her peers upset her. She needed to know someone cared. With her, and other children, I’ve seen behavior turn right around when shown tenderness, kindness, and understanding.
While struggling with fertility, I’ve often wondered why, with my desire to be a mother and my love for children, having a brood of my own will never be an option. The grief of months turning into years of inability to conceive becomes crippling. My fertility problems help me appreciate my wild girls, but with women around me having children like rabbits, why would I agree to this heartache as part of my life plan?
The Lord responded to my plea; Because you agreed to mother those who are motherless. That is your role in gathering Israel.
He has given me a gift to love, and I agreed to use that love to save His precious children from lives of anguish and loneliness. Therefore, we are preparing to take in children as foster to adopt. It won’t be easy, but I know it is my role as a daughter of God, chosen to be a mother in Zion.
Being a mother is a divine and noble role. Although some are blessed to magnify this role through a traditional manner, others are given a different route. They can fulfill their divine purpose just the same. Although I will struggle, when these children are grown I will see the blessings of my efforts. God has entrusted me with His precious children, and that's the greatest honor of all.

Thursday, November 15, 2018

College Essay #1 - Love Letter

Since I started college this year, my time to write has taken a heavy hit and has diminished significantly. However, this semester I am doing an English writing class, so I thought I'd share them here with you so you can see what little writing I have done lately.

Enjoy!


The Gift of Sight
Dear Reading Glasses,
You may be small and simple, but you make the most important things to me possible. I chose you because you’re pretty, yes, with the brown outside and a leaf and gem detail on the side in teal, but they are cosmetic details. What you do matters to me.
Your lenses have scratches, yes. I wish I could take care of you better, but you are used so often. When at home, I use you to read to my girls. I use you to read novels, articles, scriptures, the Ensign. With you, I can do the activities I love the most despite my farsightedness.
You make it possible to work with students at my job. I can read their textbooks, their worksheets, and help them with their math problems. In fact, kids notice when you’re gone and ask why I’m not wearing you.
At night, you help me drive safely. With my slight night blindness in my left eye, you adjust my weakness and make lights go from blurs to clearly defined objects. This simple thing ensures I can do what I need to do and keep myself and my children safe.
Mostly, you make it possible to spend time on my computer where my passions lie. With you, I can do my studies for school, pursue my dreams, and follow the path I have been inspired to take. You have made it possible these past few years to spend hours writing, revising, and pouring over manuscripts from first drafts to publication.
 Without you, things get blurry and I develop headaches. Without you, I struggle to do the things that mean the most to me. You are a simple thing I often take for granted or forget where I’ve left you, but I search frantically for you for a reason. You are my lifeline. You literally give me the ability to read and write and use my talents. I love you, my reading glasses.
Sincerely,
Katie

Sunday, September 16, 2018

Review: The Sacrifice by Diane Matcheck

From Goodreads:

An Apsaalooka (Crow) Indian girl has lived her life as a despised loner, overshadowed by her dead twin brother, who, it was prophesied at their birth, would become a "Great One" among his people. One night, she sets off on a forbidden journey to prove to her village, and her brother's spirit, that "she" is the one destined to become the true Great One. Her trek over the plains and into the mysterious region of modern-day Yellowstone National Park is a disaster, culminating in her eventual capture by a tribe of Pawnee. Strangely, these foreigners treat her with an unfamiliar respect, and the girl starts to let down her guard. But when it is suddenly revealed that she has been kept alive in order to be killed in a ritual harvest-season sacrifice, the girl is thrown back into her desperate battle for survival.


My Thoughts:
I am so glad I found this book again after all these years. I found it during my high school days in the school library and was deeply affected by it. Over the years I remembered the story, but not the title/author. So, after years of searching, I was ecstatic about sinking my teeth into it once more.
The Sacrifice follows an Apsaalooka (Crow) girl who has grown up on the fringes of her community, treated poorly because she was considered "bad in the head." When her father dies, and she is denied the opportunity to seek vengeance for his death, she sets out to follow the warriors, but loses track of them and her way. Her will to prove herself drives her to push forward rather than go back and face humiliation. She finds her way to modern day Yellowstone National Park, survives a bear attack, and is abducted by a band of Pawnee men. In the Pawnee camp, she is surprised to find happiness through Wolfstar, the boy who slowly softens her stone heart.
This story was as beautiful, heart wrenching, and as moving as I remembered. This coming of age tale about a "Crow" girl mesmerized me from start to the final page. Without spoilers, that ending still gets me and leaves me with a massive book hangover. In fact, it left me craving more.
I absolutely loved it.

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Review: Ogre Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine

From Goodreads:
In this prequel to Ella Enchanted, which can stand on its own, young healer Evie is transformed into an ogre by the meddling fairy Lucinda. She’ll turn back only if someone proposes and she accepts!

Returning to the land and many of the characters from her beloved Newbery Honor–winning Ella Enchanted, Gail Carson Levine has written a delightful tale about a clever and endearing heroine who is determined to defy expectations.

Evie is happiest when she is healing people, diagnosing symptoms, and prescribing medications, with the help of her devoted friend (and test subject) Wormy. So when Wormy unexpectedly proposes to her, she kindly turns him down; she has far too much to do to be marrying anyone. And besides, she simply isn’t in love with him.

But a certain meddling fairy named Lucinda has been listening in, and she doesn’t approve of Evie’s rejection. Suddenly, Evie finds herself transformed from a girl into a hideous, hungry ogre. Evie now has only sixty-two days to accept another proposal—or else be stuck as an ogre forever.


My Thoughts:
I was so excited to win this advanced reader! It will take pride of place next to my first edition Ella Enchanted on my bookshelf.
Because it is an advanced reader, I wanted to get on it asap, so bumped it to the top of my TBR pile. Plus, Ella is so beloved and a book that has inspired me since I was twelve, I couldn't let it wait.
All up, it was a fun and light read. I prefer books that way. It has the same tone and feel as Ella, which is great since it's set in the same world.
It was fun to see some familiar faces, like Ella's parents, King Jerrold pre-crowning, and a smooth introduction into Ella's story as well.
Our heroine of Ogre Enchanted is Evie, a healer and recipient of one of Lucinda's infamous "gifts". At fifteen, it's no surprise she turns down a marriage proposal, but instead of giving Evie and Wormy the chance to work things out, Lucinda sticks her nose into things and turns Evie into an Ogre. Evie has sixty-two days to get another marriage proposal or she stays an ogre forever.
In typical Levine fashion, this young heroine sets off to discover her own path and a way to set herself free, leading the reader on a magical adventure around the familiar kingdom of Kyrria from Ella's story.
My only disappointments were the writing. It wasn't as crisp and deep as EE was. There are parts that just feel rushed, and other parts that feel like YA style cliches. I didn't feel like the character and world building was up to par for other Levine books I've read, which disappointed me. I wanted more to sink my teeth into, but it wasn't there.
Again, I did enjoy this book. It kept me turning pages and it brought me a smile. And, it made me pick up Ella Enchanted again!

Saturday, August 18, 2018

My Eating Discorder

Recently, I've come to notice a pattern with my eating. It's not a pretty picture either. When I was in high school, I teetered on the edge of anorexia. I avoided eating in front of people, skipped meals, and if I felt too hungry, I drowned it with water. I wasn't thin, so no one noticed. Yes, I had issues with anemia, and these bizarre stress mini seizures, but no one knew how little I was eating so they chalked it up to how much I did with my life with all my sports, and choirs, and school, and crappy social circles. But my relationship with my body has always been very negative.
When I was in my early twenties, I started to become comfortable-ish with my body. I was never as slender as most girls my age, but I was comfortable in my skin and mostly liked the way I looked. I think it was for all of about three years this lasted. Three years out of the past eighteen of my adolescent and adult life.
My first big weight change came when I had my first child. I have PCOS, so despite nursing and exercise, the pregnancy weight refused to budge. Add onto that a difficult baby and postpartum depression and it was a recipe for disaster.
It took me a few years, but I finally started to pull out of my slump and try to find ways to beat down the PCOS fat cling. I lost 20lbs, and fell pregnant again.
After baby two, as I expected, I felt the PPD coming on again, and also, again, the weight didn't go away despite nursing and exercise care of the PCOS. But this time, the depression lingered.
Recently, I've come to the realization that I have depression. Since having PPD, I have learned the signs and it frightens me to see them pop up without the pregnancy and baby hormones running rampant. Especially because depression makes me do things to numb. This is where my eating disorder kicks in. I'm addicted to eating to numb my feelings. My numbing routine consists of binge watching TV/movies and eating. It's like everything else in life is too hard to handle, especially when I'm home. I work all day, come home to work more, I study. I'm always tired now too, and with the heat, all I want to do is sleep.
I have an eating disorder. The problem is, I have no idea how to fix it.

Saturday, August 11, 2018

My List of Inhibitions, or, Thoughts That Go Through My Head Daily

1. My writing sucks.
2. My stories suck.
3. I'm not very smart.
4. I will never earn my degree because I'm not smart, especially when it comes to math.
5. I'm fat.
6. I'm ugly.
7. People can't see past 6 & 7.
8. My husband can't see past 6 & 7.
9. My girls will grow up and see how much 6 & 7 destroy my confidence and it will reflect in them and their lives.
10. Every time I try to lose weight, it works for a while, but then stops and comes back on again, even if I'm still doing what just shed 25 lbs. I'll never find something that actually works.
11. When I look in the mirror, I see no value in the person looking back. I don't even see me anymore.
12. I'm tired all the time.
13. I'm stressed all the time.
14. I don't have the energy or funds to exercise like I need to, which makes me more stressed.
15. No matter what I do to bring us up financially, it's never enough.
16. I work and study until I'm dead exhausted and it's still not enough.
17. People judge me for how messy my house is.
18. I don't have the time or energy to keep my house clean and it makes me stressed.
19. I can't spend these critical years home with my youngest because I have to go out and work or we'll lose everything.
20. I'm tired and stressed from having to carry most of the burdens around our home. Increasingly, I'm growing disillusioned and depressed and consider just disappearing, leaving, doing something because I don't know how much more I can take.
21. I have no friends I can open to, no one I consider close because I don't have the time.
22. Strike that, I could have the time, but I'm so tired, stressed, depressed, and disgusted with myself to try to find friends.
23. I don't feel like I deserve friends.
24. Even if I did have friends, I seem unable to really share what's going on inside. It's easier to smile and say, "I'm fine."
25. I hate how hot it always seems to be here. I don't want to go outside as a result, which means my favorite source of exercise, walking my dogs, is limited to two or, at the most, three months a year.
26. I feel guilty every time I leave my kids to do something.
27. I don't write much anymore, and I lack inspiration.
28. I'm lonely. All. The. Time.
29. I miss the old me, the one who was so hopeful, who believed she could be loved and likable, and wasn't horrified at the person who looked back at her in the mirror.
30. Most days, I cry because I'll never be able to share any of this with anyone, and I know I'm going to break any day. I'm so done.

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Review: Like Water for Chocolate by Laura Esqivel

From Goodreads:
Earthy, magical, and utterly charming, this tale of family life in turn-of-the-century Mexico became a best-selling phenomenon with its winning blend of poignant romance and bittersweet wit.

The number one bestseller in Mexico and America for almost two years, and subsequently a bestseller around the world, Like Water For Chocolate is a romantic, poignant tale, touched with moments of magic, graphic earthiness, bittersweet wit - and recipes. 

A sumptuous feast of a novel, it relates the bizarre history of the all-female De La Garza family. Tita, the youngest daughter of the house, has been forbidden to marry, condemned by Mexican tradition to look after her mother until she dies. But Tita falls in love with Pedro, and he is seduced by the magical food she cooks. In desperation, Pedro marries her sister Rosaura so that he can stay close to her, so that Tita and Pedro are forced to circle each other in unconsummated passion. Only a freakish chain of tragedies, bad luck and fate finally reunite them against all the odds.

My Thoughts:
I had mixed feelings about this book. I liked how the recipes were entwined into the story to enrich the plot, and the hint of magic was enchanting. But the whole story made my heart ache. I struggle with books that make my heart ache, especially this kind where family hurt each other over and over due to selfishness.
But I can understand why it is a classic. It is beautifully written and tragic.
I read this on Audible.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Review: Mountain Hero by Cheryl Yeko

From Goodreads:
Broken Engagement:
Finding her fiancé cheating with her best friend was bad enough, but when Michelle heads up the Rocky Mountains for a little R & R, it goes from bad to worse when her car breaks down during a major snowstorm.

Mountain Hero:
Along a deserted stretch of highway, Jason rescues a beautiful woman who’s being accosted by two men. But can he keep her safe when they’re left stranded during a harsh winter storm? 

Love Blossoms:
Sometimes, one finds their Soul Mate in the most unexpected places.

My Thoughts:
This was one of my quick audio books I played while doing house work. As for the story, it was okay. None of the characters really popped for me, and I'm not a fan of that much steam, which is entirely personal preference. It simply wasn't the best book for ME.

Saturday, May 26, 2018

The Glass Mermaid by Poppy Lawless

From Goodreads:
Kate 
I'm the last mermaid. I'm back on shores of Lake Erie, but the cold waters are silent. There is nothing here for me but ghosts and the beach glass that litters the rocky shore. Long ago, I lived below the waves. Now, I am the sole survivor, and at long last, my mermaid glamour is leaving me. Every day, I walk the beach. Every day, I wonder what happened to my people. The little pieces of colored glass that wash ashore give me simple pleasure. They are gifts from the lake, reminders of home. I fashion them into trinkets: necklaces, earrings, bracelets. They are beautiful things. The humans seem love them. Every day, I walk the beach. Nothing ever changes, until the day he says hello. 

Cooper 
I'm dying. It's not a question, it's a fact. The cancer is eating me alive. They told me I have six months to live, maybe less. I came home, back to Chancellor on Lake Erie, to die. The sunsets are vivid there, and I will relish every one. I've never seen anything more beautiful than a Lake Erie sunset until I see her. All life is as fragile as glass. What would you sacrifice to save the one you love?



My Thoughts:
This is a sweet, feel-good story. I played it on audio book while cleaning, and the shorter length of the novella really helped pass the time. In the town of Chancellor, old myths and legends still exist, hidden away. This story follows Kate, the last mermaid of Lake Erie, as she comes to terms with how long she has outlived her kind and her dealing with her grief to do with her part in their demise.
Cooper returns home to live the last of his life in his childhood home, but when he meets Kate, he finds a reason to fight.
I love how each character strengthened and uplifted the other, even when they didn't know the pain the other was going through. I very much enjoyed this book.

Friday, April 6, 2018

Blog Tour: The Unbelievable, Inconceivable, Unforeseeable Truth About Ethan Wilder by Cookie O'Gorman



The Unbelievable, Inconceivable, Unforeseeable Truth About Ethan Wilder
by Cookie O'Gorman
Genre: YA Romance/Murder Mystery
Release Date: April 5th 2018
               
Summary:

In the south, everyone has a secret--and murder is served with sweet tea.

The word's out: Ethan Wilder’s coming back to town, and the people of Bowie, Georgia are in a southern tizzy. Everyone knows the story. He shot and killed his sister four years ago, and people say his father, Jim Wilder, the biggest holy roller this side of the Mississippi, sent him packing for just that reason. Even if her death was unofficially ruled a suicide, Ethan’s return has everybody talking.

Seventeen-year-old Delilah Doherty can’t go anywhere without hearing his name. Born and raised in Bowie, Delilah knows firsthand about the gossipmongers and how they love a good scandal. The daughter of a wild child and niece of the local psychic, she’s also the only one who doubts Ethan’s guilt.

After Ethan saves her life, the two start a slow and steady burn neither can deny. But when Bowie's spiritual leader is nearly murdered, it rocks the small southern town to its core. Delilah and Ethan are caught in the crossfire, their relationship threatened before it's even begun. Someone has it out for Ethan's family. With everyone convinced of Ethan's guilt, it's up to Delilah to unravel the mystery before someone else gets hurt or worse...dead.

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Excerpt:
“So,” Wilder said, “how much for the ride?”
I eyed him wearily. Seconds ago he’d looked like he was going to be sick. Now, he was teasing?
“Free?” He feigned surprise. “Wow Doherty, I didn’t know you cared.”
Alright, if he wanted to play, I wasn’t above a little teasing.
“Information,” I said, crossing my arms. Despite myself, I was still interested. “You like the truth so much, tell me something I don’t know, something about you. The real Ethan Wilder.”
“You mean, besides the fact that I killed my sister?”
His delivery was inspired, but I rolled my eyes.
“You did not,” I said.
“Oh?” His gaze narrowed. “You don’t believe me?”
“Not a chance.” I shook my head; no way did I believe that. “The truth, Wilder.”
Crossing his own arms, he said, “I’m gay.”
“You’re what?!” I nearly swallowed my tongue.
Ignoring my outburst, he went on.
“I’ve loved you, Delilah, half my life.”
At that, my heart skipped a beat. How could he say something like that so easily?
“I killed my sister.” He waited for his words to sink in. “If I told you only one of those statements is true,” he said, stare fastened to my face, “which would you believe?”
I thought it over. The first had to be a lie. I’d seen him with too many girls. No way Wilder was batting for the same team. I automatically discarded the second statement. It couldn’t be true either. I hadn’t met Wilder before this year, so his being in love with me for any extended period of time was simply impossible. His being in love with me at all was inconceivable. That left what he’d said about his sister. The idea flitted through my brain, in and out in less than a breath. The more I knew of Wilder, the more convinced I became that some terrible, terrible mistake had been made four years ago. I didn’t believe for a second he’d killed his sister, not even when he said it so convincingly. To think, the same person who’d jumped into that lake could be capable of such an unspeakable offense. No, whatever else he was, Ethan Wilder was not a murderer. He just couldn’t be.
Considering my options, I settled on the only possibility.
“So, you’re gay.” I shrugged. “No big deal. Next time I see Ronnie, I’ll let him know you’re fair game.”
Wilder laughed. The sound was real, filled with complete abandon. Hearing him laugh like that, knowing I’d caused that break in his cool façade, made a strange ache bloom in my chest. I wanted to hear that laugh again and again.
“You do that,” he said, stepping outside. “I’ll see you, Doherty.”
Unable to resist, I said, “Should I tell Ronnie to get your coffee from now on? I’m sure he wouldn’t mind, seeing as how you love it so much.”
Wilder peered through the open door.
“I hate coffee,” he said seriously.
“You do?” I asked confused.
He nodded. “Always have.”
“Then why—?”
“I’ll see you.”

Shutting the door, he took his time walking up the stone pathway.

About the Author
Cookie O'Gorman writes YA romance to give readers a taste of happily-ever-after. Small towns, quirky characters, and the awkward yet beautiful moments in life make up her books. Cookie also has a soft spot for nerds and ninjas. Her debut novel ADORKABLE is out now! Her second book NINJA GIRL was released March 30,2017!
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Monday, March 26, 2018

Blog Tour: Songlines by Carolyn Denman



Songlines
by 
Carolyn Denman
Genre: Clean YA Fantasy
Release Date: August 20th 2016

Summary:



We belong to the Earth, Lainie-Bug. We were sent here in human form for a reason. If you don’t know what to do, then just be human.
 Right. Like that was ever a simple thing to do.
In the heart of the Wimmera region of Australia, an ancient gateway is kept hidden and safe by a creature so powerful that even the moon would obey her commands – at least it would if she had any idea that she wasn’t just a normal girl about to finish high school.
When a mining company begins some exploratory sampling near Lainie’s sheep farm, a family secret is revealed that makes her regret not having learned more about her heritage.
 What she’s told by their farm hand, Harry, can’t possibly be true, but then the most irritating guy in class, Bane, begins to act even more insane than ever, until she can no longer deny that something very unusual is going on.
When Harry doesn’t return from his quest to seek help to protect the area from the miners, Lainie sets out to discover the truth of her heritage, and of the secret she’s been born to protect.


Excerpt:
The barking from the aged blue heeler echoed off the tin machinery shed as the sedan crunched to a halt on the loose gravel. Ruby rubbed her elbows to sooth a prickle of apprehension. Geoff was in the shed, searching the dusty shelves for the right sized ratchet-head she’d asked for so she could fix the hot water service. Harry was in the kitchen, doing what all nine-year-old boys do an hour before lunch – hunting for snacks.
A stocky man in a business suit emerged from the sedan, tossing his sunglasses on the driver’s seat. He appeared to be in his thirties, with dark hair, thick eyebrows, and a strong jawline that spoke of Italian descent. The man gave the yard a quick appraisal, and then checked his watch, a gaudy thing designed to impress clients.
Ruby met him at the front door.
‘Mrs Doolan? My name is Paul Dashner. I’ve been asked to make some enquiries on behalf of Celarsi Holdings about an item you recently sold to them. May I come in?’
Guardian instincts barred the doorway. The man wasn’t a threat, and yet he made her very uncomfortable. Whatever he had to say, he could say it where he was.
She crossed her arms. ‘My husband tried to call the company. Couldn’t even get a call back, and yet you’ve driven all the way up here from, where, Melbourne? What is it you want to know, Mr Dashner?’
The man licked his lips as if assessing her attitude before framing a reply. ‘We were advised that the ruby had been in your family for a long time. The new owner is curious about its origins. Can you tell me its history?’
A tug at her instincts told her that Geoff had emerged from the shed and was heading towards them.
‘The history of my ruby? It has no history to speak of.’
The man waited for more. His expression almost stern.
‘What am I supposed to tell you? Geoff’s father gave it to him. I don’t know exactly where it came from originally.’
Paul Dashner gave a cool smile. ‘Perhaps Geoff knows more.’
‘More about what?’ her husband asked as he stepped up onto the porch with his arms laden with tools. He dumped them at her feet like an offering to the Goddess of Broken Things.
‘Nothing. He was just leaving,’ Ruby said, stepping forward over the tools and closing the door behind her. She gestured for the man to start moving back to his car, but he ignored her.
‘Geoff Doolan? My apologies for not returning your calls. My employer is curious about the ruby you sold us. Was it mined locally?’
Geoff’s face paled and Ruby’s heart sank. This was exactly what she had repeatedly assured him wouldn’t happen. Why would they care about the origins of one ruby? It had great clarity, and excellent colour, but it wasn’t exactly a museum piece.
Her husband’s voice held no trace of the swallowed-tongue guilt she knew he felt. ‘Not locally, no.’
‘Can you tell me anything about its history? For insurance purposes, you understand. If the owner ever needs to replace it, he would like to get as close a match as possible. Even just the country it came from would be helpful information.’
‘I’m sorry, but I never asked.’ Geoff started walking to the man’s car, and Ruby followed, hoping the man would take the hint.
‘Do you have any more?’
 And with those words, the air became still. Ruby stared at her husband. Geoff stopped walking, closed his eyes and pressed his lips together. His hands were clenched into fists and Ruby’s Guardian heartbeat raced to catch up to his. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed the kitchen curtain twitch as her son’s concerned face looked out to see what was happening.
Everything waited. The breeze paused. The birds watched on, silent. The old dog stood, tongue hanging and eyes more alert than they had been in years, as if waiting for a command. She waited for it too. She could feel the authority in the space between air particles. The whole world was frozen in anticipation of a spoken word, a decree to tell it what to do, how it could serve.
Geoff turned, stepped up to Paul Dashner and looked him right in the eye. ‘There are no more gems. You will tell your employer not to enquire further, and you need not be afraid of his reply. There is nothing to be afraid of.’
Instead of the confusion Ruby expected in response to Geoff’s words, the business man’s shoulders relaxed, and he smiled. ‘That is good news,’ he said. ‘I’ll tell him there are no more gems.’
Ruby looked on, astounded, as the man got back into his car and drove away. How long before Geoff’s influence wore off and he began to question what had just happened? Would he come back, demanding an explanation?
‘Geoff. Why would you say that? “Tell your employer not to enquire further?” You know that will only make them think we have something to hide.’
Her bonded charge turned to her and held out his right hand, still clenched into a fist. His eyes were haunted, shining with a sacred light that held both terror and beauty.
‘We do have something to hide, and I don’t know that I did the right thing,’ he whispered.
‘Well, I understand exactly how that feels,’ she said, ready to comfort him, but just as she was about to take his hand, he opened it, and she gasped.
There, resting on his palm was a ruby cradled by angel’s wings. Its light pulsed in resonance with Geoff’s heartbeat – the rhythm of his life-blood that she always felt more clearly than her own. Sunlight sparkled from the jewel like tiny secrets escaping from its core.
Yet more heavy secrets that they now had to guard with their lives.



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Carolyn Denman writes speculative fiction for adults and young adults. She has written short stories for Aurealis and Andromeda Spaceways magazines. The third novel in her Sentinels of Eden series is due for release by Odyssey Books in 2018.  Carolyn lives on a hobby farm on the outskirts of Melbourne with her husband, two daughters, her parents and far too many pets. Co-housing is the future though, right?
Somehow, her science degree and work in the finance industry have equipped her to write great science-fiction while still making sure her protagonists can always meet their mortgage repayments.

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Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Guest Post: The Accidental Turn Series by J.M. Frey

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The Accidental Turn Series  follows Pip, who is pulled against her will into the epic fantasy novel series she’s loved since she was a teenager. However, the world is darker, and far more dangerous than she could have ever predicted, especially when it turns out the hero is a much bigger misogynistic ass than she knew.  Pip knows how to circumnavigate the Hero’s Journey and the pitfalls and loopholes of this particular world – but what will happen to her beloved characters outside of the comfort of the fantasy they were written for? And what happens when it’s not the male-power-fantasy hero, but the hero’s overlooked and bullied little brother who proves to be her biggest champion?

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What is it like to finish an epic fantasy series? Mostly, it’s exhausting. Sure, thrilling, triumphant, terrifying, all of those things, but mostly exhausting. I handed in the draft of the forth and final book of The Accidental Turn Series in December of 2017 and I swear, all I’ve done since is sleep. (Or rather, wish I could sleep, as I’ve been editing two other novels, which are being published this year.)
It takes a lot out of a gal to write a trilogy. What a lot of people don’t realize is that writers aren’t only just writing while they’ve got the pen in their hands, or their fingers on their keys. They are thinking about their stories constantly, playing mental jenga with scenes as they do the dishes, and composing the perfect opening line in a boring office meeting, and brainstorming how on Earth they’re going to get themselves out of that corner they wrote a character into while doing the bedtime routine with the kiddos. They are making notes everywhere – scrap paper, receipts, notebooks in purses, on whiteboards and chalk walls, and sticky notes bristling from the edge of their computer screens like a lion’s mane.
And the moment when you hand that final manuscript in, that moment when it stops being your burden is… wonderful. Scary, because you don’t know if your editor, agent, publisher, secondary/beta reader, friends, mom, or postman will love it. But at the same, such a relief. Because you know that you’ve done the best that you can, and that you can stop carrying your little book baby all over the place. It has its own legs now, it can start to learn to walk. It’ll be running, soon enough, and then, if you’re lucky, flying off the shelves.
Authors like to write stories about writing. Stephen King did it. John Scalzi did it. Jodi Picoult did it. Jim C. Hines did it. Cornelia Funke did it. Jane Austen did it. When I started The Untold Tale, I knew it would be about fans, and community, and cosplay, and Mary Sues, and all the things I loved about fanfiction and conventions. But I didn’t realize so much of the books would be about writing, and writers, and the burden/joy of creating a novel.
Through the writer character in this series, I had the unique pleasure to be able to not only talk about writing, but show my audience what it meant to be a creator. I hope you like Elgar Reed, and his creations Kintyre and Forsyth Turn, Sir Bevel Dom, and the world he envisioned. And when you read a book – not just my books, but every book – you have a better understanding of just how much of each of us goes into the work we write.
Yeah, it’s exhausting. But it’s thrilling. It’s wonderfully challenging.  It’s amazing. It’s magic.

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J.M. (@scifrey) is a SF/F author, fanthropologist,  and professional smartypants on AMI Radio’s Live From Studio 5. She’s appeared in podcasts, documentaries, and on television to discuss all things geeky through the lens of academia. Her debut novel TRIPTYCH was nominated for two Lambda Literary Awards,  nominated for a 2011 CBC Bookie, was named one of The Advocate’s Best Overlooked Books of 2011, and garnered both a starred review and a place among the Best Books of 2011 from Publishers Weekly. Her sophomore novel, an epic-length feminist meta-fantasy THE UNTOLD TALE (Accidental Turn Series #1), debuted to acclaim in 2015 and was followed by THE FORGOTTEN TALE (Accidental Turn Series #2) December 2016, and THE SILENCED TALE (Accidental Turn Series #3) December 2017. This spring will see the launch of the final book in the series, THE ACCIDENTAL COLLECTION, which will feature all of the short stories and novellas included in the series, as well as a brand-new never before published novella.
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Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Release: Creature of the Night by Anne Stinnett

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What promises to be the most sensational season yet of the hit reality competition Creature of the Night is set to premiere. The competition will be fierce, and the challenges will be bloody because the twelve contestants are competing for more than a check and a bit of fame. They are competing for immortality.

To earn it, they will vie for survival before an audience that lurks like a pack of fiends, ready to repay any sign of weakness with jeering applause. At the same time, they must impress a panel of vampire judges, the most approachable of whom is a nightmare out of history. But the real predators are the producers.

The contestants are bursting with bravado and anxiety. They have come to live, and to die. Their ranks include an intellectual desperate for more time, a vampire rights advocate on the verge of disillusionment, and a ballerina who thinks she has nothing to lose. Under scrutiny from the bickering vampires and bloodthirsty audience, the competitors must navigate potentially lethal challenges and, if they ever hope to become undead, stay alive.

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About Anne Stinnett:

Anne Stinnett was born in Los Angeles where she spent most of her first decade reading books and playing in traffic. Eventually, she learned the foolishness of frolicking amongst moving vehicles, but she is still a voracious reader of multiple genres. After growing up in California, she moved around a bit, eventually landing in Albuquerque. She graduated from the University of New Mexico, with a major in English and a minor in Theater Arts. She now lives in Palm Springs, California with her freeloader canine friends Sirius (yes, Black) Midge, and Bueller, who occasionally allow her to get some writing done.